restless ramblings

I'm so excited that I have tomorrow off from work. It works out SO well because we're supposed to have a lot of snow tonight and I really hate having to dig out in the morning when you're in a rush to get to work. Writing that just reminded me to look out the window to see if it actually snowed at all yet as they were predicting that it would start around midnight and indeed, it has. I guess the "weather people" got it (at least partly) right this time. Last time they predicted we'd get a lot of snow we got absolutely nothing. I kind of felt bad for the weather people... I mean, that's not a job I'd want to do. It's not an exact science... I mean, the very word prediction indicates that they don't know for sure. But if they get it even a little bit wrong, they've got to hear about it from EVERYBODY. So at least there's snow out there this time.

I mean, I hate snow... But those "weather people" deserve a break. ;)

Oh, and it also works out pretty well because apparently I'm suffering from a bit of insomnia tonight... There's no way I'll be able to get myself to sleep before 2am tonight...

Got an odd phone call this weekend. Friday night I had a missed call from a number I didn't recognize when Alex and I left my parents' house. Then we got back to the apartment and my phone ring and I answered it and no one responded. It rang again from the same number and it was Tim (the ex). How annoying. I mean, it's been almost three years now. It's just SO history... I mean, it's not even anything I think about anymore. It's the past. It doesn't matter. I mean, he hurt me then, but in the end I'm SO much better off not being with him. So it just doesn't matter to me anymore. He was calling to apologize. He kept stumbling over his words and sounded really embarrassed for having called. I don't know what he expected. I didn't make it easy for him because, frankly, he doesn't deserve that. He insisted on meeting me the next day so that he could apologize in person because he really felt like he needed to do that. I agreed. I don't know why. I guess because I thought maybe he was in some sort of twelve step program or something and his apologies needed to be made in person to be "real". I also thought that if I let him get this apology thing out of his system, then I wouldn't ever have to worry about having him call me again (he tried to do this in August or September or something like that last year). It was just so irritating that he called. Like I care that he's sorry. I mean, I guess I just figured that that went without saying. He was a huge asshole to me, so I figured that, three years later, he'd be sorry about that and there'd be no need to actually spell that out. And also, I just don't care. He asked me how I was doing, which irritated me. Did he expect that three years later I wouldn't be doing fine? What an ass. Anyway, it turned out that the time he wanted to meet was very inconvenient for me and I was going to call and cancel (because, also, I thought it was pretty selfish of him to ask to apologize in person when it made no difference to me) but he saved me the effort by chickening out and calling to tell me that "something came up and he wouldn't be able to meet me." Whatever. I really don't know what he expected. That I'd be all shocked to hear from him or want to hear what he had to say or something, I guess, because he seemed shaken by the fact that I made it obvious that I really didn't care what he had to say one way or another. I just handled it like it was a business call. I mean, there's no emotion there for me anymore. It's done. It's the past. It's history. And I couldn't help but think that it was pretty pathetic that it was still affecting him so much. Whatever. He said that he wouldn't call me anymore, and that suits me just fine.

Beck once told me that they (ex-boyfriends) always end up calling you after the breakup, always when you least expect it. Guys: why do you do that? It's annoying. We don't want to hear from you. You were a jerk. You just need to own that and get on with your life. That's what do: we just realize you weren't the person we thought you were, we learn from our mistakes, and we pick up and move on. Geez! Why would you think that we want to hear from you? Or that we care that you're sorry now? Can't you see how selfish it is of you to call us? SUCH a guy move... thinking that we'd still somehow be hung up on them.

God, boys are SO stupid.

In other news, our Disney plans have been pushed back. We're no longer going in January of 2006; we'll be going in October of '06 now. It'll work out better... and the weather will be nicer (I mean, what's the point of going to Florida if the average high during that time is right around 70 degrees?). We're still hoping to rent DVC points so we can stay at the Boardwalk, but now I've got to wait a while before I can set up renting the points because the maximum amount of months in advance a reservation could be set up is 11 months. So now I'm counting down to November just so that I can really start planning. It's just awesome to know that we'll be going back next year! Memories from our trip in September are some of my favorite daydreams... :) (I can't wait to start getting things all planned and set!!)

The other advantage of not going until October next year is that it gives us more time to save our dollars... I set up a subaccount to my savings account with my bank yesterday that'll be specifically devoted to the next Disney trip. The guy setting up the account at my bank asked me what I wanted to name it and I SO wanted to shout, "'Disney Fund', yay!!" but I didn't and went lame: vacation. (But in my head it's still "Disney Fund"!) I've set it up to automatically transfer $50 a month from my checking account and so by the time we go next year, I should have almost $1000 for the trip. Yay! Alex wants to use his tax return for the room costs and I'll use my underwriting bonus from work for our park tickets (the bonus this year isn't going to be half as much as last years, so I hope it'll cover them!). So then we'll just have to get airline tickets on our own, and then the rest of the money that we save up will be just for food/souveniers/other fun stuff. Yay! I can't wait!

And now I really have to stop writing/thinking about it or else I really never will get to sleep tonight...