apparently i've decided to become fat again. i got home from work (after convincing myself again to skip the gym) and decided that it was a better idea to read Confessions of a Shopoholic than to do the dishes right away. so i read. and then i was a little hungry so i ate a leftover eggroll. and then i read some more. and then i felt bad about not having done the dishes so i wondered into the kitchen... and decided i was still hungry so i ate the other leftover eggroll. i haven't been to the gym in over a week now and i've been eating like a complete pig. in fact, monday night i was uncomfortable because i'd eaten so much and i think i could actually feel my stomach expanding. i'm ridiculous. i was going to be better starting today but then i had a package of peanut butter crackers, a bagel with cream cheese, a small mocha mint latte, a Chinese chicken and veggies smart ones and a package of Swedish fish. i won't be in that bad shape if i don't really eat after the gym tonight. but knowing how i've been lately i'll probably go home and have about five handfuls of peanut butter m&m's and probably more leftover Chinese food. i suck. anyway. back to last night. so after i decided to eat the second egg roll i went back to the living room (because doing the dishes seemed too overwhelming) and i played the Sims on PS2 for about an hour and a half before i switched it off and finished my book and then watched Queer Eye and passed out on the sofa. i woke up at about 3:30 and wondered into bed and was irrationally afraid of ghosts for some reason. being awake and alone at 3:30am is kind of scary. anyway. that was awful. i've been so bad lately. but i am definitely going to the gym tonight and hopefully it will be the start of my getting back on track... hopefully. i really don't want to be fat again...

so the weekend was good.

Went out with Alex on Friday, hung out with Beck and Dodi on Saturday (took Dodi to lunch for her birthday and went shopping) and later Beck and I went with Carrie to sage's production of Noises Off, which Meredith's husband was in. Then Beck and I hung out with Kevin and his friend Aaron at the Hill Street Cafe.

Sunday I had to work the NYS Trooper testing (hey, you can sign up online to take the test in march right now...). Afterwards Beck and I met Dodi at the Pier One that her sister works at because they were having their friends and family day where you can get the employee discount of your friend/family member that works there. i got a couple of sconces for my living room wall... i've been looking for some for a while and these were only $12 each plus 30% off. so rock. I also bought a couple of paper lanterns (one to hang in my porch... looks awesome... and one to go above my table in my "dining" room) which were hella cheap. so rock! Beck and I swapped Europe photos (well, i acquired some of her doubles and now i've got to get some of my pics printed for her). Alex came with me to dinner at my parents house later that night. Mom made "asian pork" which had a spicy sauce but the pork itself was very yummy... i think alex was nervous about coming to my parents house which was very cute because my parents are so harmless (well, dad is when he wants to be, and he was behaving last night).

Anyway, it was a good weekend.

still planning on writing a book. rock. i'm gonna be so cool. then i'll get a weekly column in a major newspaper and be so Carrie from Sex And The City. only i won't spend all my money on shoes. (i'll spend it all on crap for my house).

so sad to be at work. it's raining and all i want to do is go home and crawl under my covers. awesome. but i can't do that until like 7:30 tonight because i'm going to my kickboxing class after work and i won't get done at the gym until 7. sigh.

i need to not work here anymore. i think i write that in every post. i should probably do something about it one of these days... but now it's back to work :(