well, i'm going to tell my doctors that I'm leaving today. beck says that i have to tell jeff first thing. he's got an appointment at 9:15, so I'm going to get there (hopefully) a couple of minutes early and go right to his office and tell him. i hope bill's not in yet. i wonder if i should try and tell them both at once. but i don't know how i'd make that happen. excuse me, i need to speak with both of you, um, out in the hall? whatever. I'm going to go to jeff and say, "Jeff, I need to talk to you quick. I've decided not to return to gradschool next semester and since I won't be a student anymore I'm going to need to take a full time job. I've really enjoyed working here and I'm sorry to have to leave so soon, but I have to. So, this is my four weeks' notice, which will make my last day here Friday, December 6." Yeah. If i could say it like that, it'd be great. but i'll just end up standing there with my face all red and mumbling. i hate dissappointing people. beh.

off to school ill-prepared again. perhaps i'll leave early (again).

it's so cold. I'm baking tomorrow.

so the cable guy came right after i posted that last post. I'm so excited to have real tv again! i watched some random movie on comedy central with gene wilder in it (he weirds me out) and richard pryor. i think it was called the silver streak... it wasn't all that great. but i was so happy to be able to watch bad tv again that it didn't matter. then i watched trading spaces (yay!). it was one i'd never seen. the designers were hilda and doug (what a horrible combination). the people doug was working with were being horrible to him (but, what else is new. that guy always fights with his people) and they wouldn't let him stain the floor (which would have looked great). the room turned out fabulously (except for the floors, which just really should have been stained). hilda did this weird awful room. the concept sounded nice: inspired by tiffany's, but she had her people airbrush squiggles on the walls and all of the fabric in the room and she covered a bench with aluminum foil, so it just looked kinda shitty to me. but those freaking people who were giving doug such a hard time loved it. they have real awful taste.

so i didn't have to go down to the basement today (yay)! the plumbers didn't show up until just when i was leaving, so i booked out of there so i wouldn't have to go down there. it's just so freaky...

I called Mary Ellen at the insurance company to give her a start date. I said Mon, Dec. 9, which is about a week after she was expecting me to start, and she said she'd have to check with Andy (the manager) and get back to me. i hope that's going to be ok. now i feel like a tool. i suck.

so the cable guy still isn't here. the slot of time is between noon and 4:30, so there's still 2 hours left in the slot, but i didn't get here till 1 because of work, and i'm all paranoid that i missed him. the woman on the phone yesterday said that if i missed him then to call right away so they could see about getting someone else out here, but how would i know if i missed him? i mean, since she said that i guess they'd leave something in my mailbox or something like that... there wasn't anything there when i got home (i don't think... now i'm going to obsessively check it... irritating) so i don't think i missed him. it would suck if i didn't end up getting cable today, 'cause i was all psyched about new south park... i guess i better finish up my homework for tonight, because after i get cable there will be no homework doing...

i have so much homework due next week in school. like tons of it, and it's all big important shit. i suck. why didn't i start any of this before? why am i still freaking going to school, anyway? school sucks. i've got a real job now, i just don't care about this school crap (or, really, i wish i didn't care. i'm still going to stress out about it and be all annoyed when i don't get A's.)

why is it that every time i get a random day off of school on a tuesday, "that 70s show" isn't on? they're airing "fox's funniest outtakes." ok, there's a problem here. there are only a few shows on fox that are worth watching to begin with. why would i want to watch outtakes from these other random awful shows? suck suck suck suck suck.

so YAY! I'm getting cable tomorrow! (just in time for new episodes of south park). I'm so hella excited. I kept telling myself that I didn't need cable etc, but tv just really sucks without it. :) so tonight is my last night watching cableless tv. YAY! the "appointment" is for "any time between noon and 4:30" which is annoying. i told the woman on the phone that i don't get out of work until 1, and she said that she'd "write a note telling them to go later in the appointment" but if i got home and i missed them to call right away because "maybe they'll be able to get back out there." i want a job where i get to make people wait around for long stretches of time where i may show up at any time and expect them to be there. beh. butyeah, cable! now i can watch trading spaces again! and south park! and bad television on MTV! yay! (this was my 'treat' to myself for getting a 'real' job... another monthly bill...)

so i didn't tell my boss that i'm leaving today. i took all morning to get up the nerve to go down to his office and tell him, but when i went down there he was on his way out the door to a lunch meeting. i suck. i really need to tell them soon. i'm calling my new job tomorrow and telling them a start date, and that will get me moving on resigning from the current job. hopefully.

so tomorrow i have to show the plumber to a leak in the basement at work. i'm so freaking afraid of that basement. it's so much scarier than the attic. there are boards that you have to walk on in order to avoid falling into holes down there. and it's all low-ceilinged and dark and dank. it looks like a dungeon. the different rooms are separated by stone archways... ugh. i'm not looking forward to this.

so i actually went to class tonight. amazing for me. i took a test (first one done, as always in this class, and it looks like i got the best grade out again. kinda embarassing). we (a couple of people from class and i) were going to leave after the test and go to a bar, but one of the girls in the class mentioned that it looked like the prof (who sucks, by the way) had our papers that we handed in last week to give back so we stayed. it sucked so much. we watched a stupid video module (all we ever do in that class, that's why i never go) where some kid got all excited over christmas and puked. it was the most random video. later on they showed three year old italian kids who kept grabbing at the microphone (microfono! encore microfono!) and they never made the connection of why they were showing them... and then the stupid teacher never gave us back our papers, so staying was a big waste of time. beh. soyeah then we went to Sadie's (which is just down the block from strose). i had a couple glasses of guinness (poured expertly by the barkeep with little shamrocks on top) and talked to the guys that came along while the other two girls each had a mixed drink and talked about their boyfriends. very typical that i ended up talking to the guys more than the girls. we discussed different shots/drinks that we liked and the weirdest places we'd "done it." intelligent conversation to say the least. but a good time was had by all and we made a resolution to do that every monday (which is good, because it'll at least get me to class).

so now i sit here eating leftover mexican food that's been in my car since friday. that's pretty gross. but i'm hella hungry. i didn't have much money with me, so all i could afford was my drinks (but i did steal some broccoli/cheese poppers from the girls that were hella yummy). soyeah. the food still tastes ok, and it was so cold this weekend that it was like it was in a fridge anyways... (i'm going to think this is so gross tomorrow).

the best thing about having a cat around is that he'll eat the shit you drop on the floor, so you don't have to worry about cleaning it up...

so i have to tell my doctors that i'm leaving them. i feel like such a tool. i'm not looking forward to this at all. i have to do it tomorrow. depending on jeff's schedule, i think i'm going to talk to him just before i leave tomorrow. that way i won't have to sit there all day feeling like an asshole. but i'll have four weeks of that to look forward to... beh.

okso, the "Work: A" part was true from my weekly horoscope... i got the job at the insurance company. i was a little late to the interview (which annoyed the hell out of me. but i just couldn't get out of the house) and i met with the regional director (ken?) right away. he seemed nice.. kept going off on tangents about his kids and the local schools and the weather... but nice all the same. he asked me a few questions, but nothing really in depth, and then i asked him some things (what's the most important quality in order to succeed in this position? how am i evaluated? what are the opportunities for advancement?) and then he went and got Mary Ellen (who will be my supervisor). I could tell from the way he was talking to me that I pretty much had the job. then Andy (the branch manager) came out and we talked for a few minutes (he was on his way out to pick up a police report) and I got the impression that I was going to be working there from the casual manner in which we were talking, and then Mary Ellen came out and offered me the job... it pays decently (actually, it pays just what i was realisitically looking for) and i get full benefits. I'm pretty excited. and to celebrate, i'm calling up timewarner and getting cable (all i have now is roadrunner). hopefully, they'll be able to get here by wednesday at ten, so i won't miss the new episodes of south park... :)

So here's my weekly horoscope:

CANCER
Your creativity is heightened at the beginning of the week. In fact, if you are in the arts, Monday and most of Tuesday are as inspirational as they come. Look to get some long-avoided work done the rest of the week.
Your luck this week*

Love: C
Money: C
Work: A

ok, well, i like that "Work: A," because I'm going in for my second interview today with the insurance compnay and it'd be sweet if they offered me the job. i'd get cable right away then (hopefully by wednesday night because the new South Parks start then...). My parents seem to think that they're going to offer me the job because they say that they don't bring you in for a second interview unless they intend on giving you the job. well, that'd be nice, but all of the career-advice-sites that I've gone to don't really say that. I'm nervous because I'm thinking that they can't decide between me and some other candidate, and I really want to make a good impression today. But, I feel like we covered pretty much everything in the first interview, so i have no idea what we'll discuss today. and i asked all of my questions the first time, i really don't know what to ask today, and every career-advice-site that i've gone to says that you should definately make a good impression by having questions prepared. beh. well, at least both of my doctors are out of the office today, so i can research some questions to ask, and also what to wear. i've already worn my interview outfit, now i've got nothing to wear today. it's a "work casual" environment, but i feel like if i just go in pants and a work-shirt i'll look too casual for an interview (even though it would be totally appropriate to wear to work there). suck. i hate this process, they better give me this job, 'cause i'm too lazy to do this again.