More butterfly meanings...

BUTTERFLY - Symbol of the cycle of birth, death and eternal life. Its symbolic meaning is taken from the actual life cycle of a butterfly and the freedom of spirit it embodies

Butterfly - symbol of a carefree childhood, as well as the journey of the soul into eternal happiness.

BUTTERFLY: Reminds Christians of the amazing transformation that takes place through Christ's redemption and regeneration. When "born again," we become "a new creation." (2 Cor. 5:17) To many pagans, its mythical meaning is linked to the soul (of the deceased) in search of reincarnation. See the new, politically correct meaning at Butterfly 208: "There's a theory that says if a single butterfly flaps its wings in, say, China, the air disturbance may cause a storm in Nunavut, Canada a month later. If that's the case, imagine the power of your own ideas and others to help improve the quality of life in the world's 208 countries! The Butterfly 208 contest is a chance for you to create your own Butterfly effect! 208 = Number of Countries in the World Butterfly + 208 = A totally interconnected world! A world where even small actions can have a big effect."

Butterfly a project or idea will soon come to fruition; the butterfly also symbolizes freedom

Butterfly etymology: Germans folklore had it that butterflies were really witches in disguise who were out to steal cream...

Butterfly - Social success, romantic success, and/or domestic happiness is forecast by a dream of these gaily colored creatures.

this page has a great description of the butterfly as a totem/power animal that i find completely groovy.

soyeah. i've decided to try and figure out what butterflies symbolize to people now that i have one tattooed onto my back for the rest of my life. perhaps i should have done this beforehand. ah well. so here's the first thing that i came up with:
Symbolic of resurrection and eternal life, the butterfly emerging from its cocoon represents the resurrection of Christ from the tomb. Just as the butterfly comes forth with a new body, those who trust in Christ come forth with new life. The butterfly also represents flight, freedom, and creative thinking. A symbol of spring, the butterfly truly reflects the beauty of nature.
I guess that would be the Christian meaning of the butterfly...

annoying. blogger fucked up that last post.. it should have read:
So, what's your birth/moon tree?
HOLLY 8 Jul-4 Aug
If your birth tree is the Holly, then you bring warmth and light into your relationships and lift the spirits of those around you. Although you are the life and soul of the party you have too much depth to be a socialite. You become attached to people and places, so when abroad you think of home with a especially strong feelings.
Celtic Symbol: Flaming Spear and The Unicorn Deities: Saturn, Thor, Mars, Hodur

so,

Wednesday, October 09, 2002

so the building where i work was robbed last night. or burglarized. what's the difference between those two terms? well, whatever one would encompass breaking and entering and stealing stuff is what happened. soyeah. when i pulled into the parking lot i noticed that there was an albany police car sitting there, but i really didn't think anything of it because dr. m. does a lot of things with law enforcement, so i figured there was someone here for files or for an eval or something. yeah. so when i went up to the back door (employee's enterance) i noticed that it was open, and so was the back door to the dentist's office that's on the first floor. i figured that they must be trying to move something, so i just walked in the building, still not suspecting that anything was up. I noticed that none of the lights were turned on, which mildly annoyed me because I was sure that people were already here, there were cars in the parking lot and doors were open, so it was annoying to me that people were here and nobody bothered to turn on the lights... yeah. i only realized something was wrong when i got into the main room and saw that everyone in the building was crowded around the enterance to the dentist's office and the cop was taking some notes and the secretary from the law office in the building was saying, "yeah, they definately knew what they were taking." So i walked in, walked past everyone, said "hey" to the cop who just said "hey" back and let me walk right through the building. well, I guess he figured that I must work here...
so when i got upstairs the one psychologist was here already (dr.mcintyre) and he's the one that works with all of the local law enforcement agencies and the state troopers etc, so i think he was kind of excited that we had a burglery. he followed me into my office telling me what was going on and pointed out that we had no electricity when i tried to turn on the lights in my office. yeah, he said "we have no phones, no electricity, no heat..." i thought he was going to tell me that i could just go home, but instead he said "... i hope you brought a book!" and walked downstairs to follow the cop around. i could hear him downstairs, talking with the cop, theorizing how they got in, what order they did things in... he came running upstairs to ask me if we had a clock that was plugged in that would have stopped when the power was cut, but i pointed out that that would require an analog clock and we only had digital clocks.. he was all dissappointed. it was actually kinda cute how excited he was. he told me that the burglers had gotten into the dentist's office by pushing the air conditioner through the window and then climbing in. I asked him, "who robs a dentist's office" and he said that they took cash, receipts, and drugs... so i guess they tried to originally get into the back door by breaking the window and reaching in, but then they realized that it was alarmed (the dentist's office was the only part of the building that wasn't alarmed). so they cut the power by ripping the electric meter off of the wall (i guess that's how you cut power to a building without electricuting yourself) and they cut all of the phone/cable lines coming into the building. that was really annoying, because even after we got power yesterday, we had no roadrunner, so my day was really boring.
after i finished inventory I speant most of the rest of the day pulling files of people who were hired as state troopers. i had to spend hours up in the attic with no power freezing my ass off pulling files. i was happy when we got power so i could come back down to my little office and sit in front of my computer, but when i realized there was no roadrunner, i was pissed. i had to waste the rest of my time (about an hour and a half) just printing envelopes for a mailing. SUCK.

so i went to a job fair yesterday. it was kinda dissappointing. if i was looking for a highly technical job or a receptionist job or a finaincial job or a job as a nurse i would've been lovin life yesterday. but since i knew i wasn't looking for one of those jobs but i didn't really know what kinda job i was looking for, there really wasn't that much there for me. i got a flyer from nemer volkswagon (because the guy wouldn't let me pass him unless i took one... he did that wave it in front of my face thing. apparently, it still works. wave something in front of my face and i'll accept it and say thank you). i could sell cars for them and get a free jetta to drive around. the free car would be good, i'm not so sure about the selling cars thing though. but i do really want a cute navy blue jetta... :) Michelle came with me (which was wonderful of her because although she is looking for a job as well, she's looking for a teaching position and there weren't any schools there, but if she hadn't have come with me i wouldn't have gone at all). we lapped the place a few times before i got the nerve to go up to a booth. i approached blue shield of northeastern ny first. they were looking for someone for their communications department. i spoke with the woman and i think i impressed her with my l33t skillz and i got her name and phone number before i left. michelle agreed with me that the woman seemed impressed. the only thing is, the position is posted internally first, and they'll probably fill it with some dumbass that already works there, which would be a shame because i'd rock (the casbah) at that job. and it would be actual experience for me. soyeah. i guess i'll call the woman tomorrow to follow up... anywho. so then we walked around some more and GHI was looking for a trainer. even though i had all of the requirements listed for the job, the woman was just not taking me seriously. she sucked. i think she looked at me and was like, "too young" and stopped right there. eww. that's really annoying. yeahso... then i was tired of walking around (yeah, we'd only been ther like a half hour, but it didn't seem worthwhile to stick around any longer) so we left.

we went to the burger king across the street 'cause i hadn't eaten really yet. there was this new guy working the register, and he was being assisted by the "old guy" (they kept calling eachother new guy and old guy). the old guy had long braided hair with red beads at the end and gold front teeth. the young guy had a HUGE diamond (well, i dunno if it was real, but it was real sparkly) earring in his right ear. so the new guy took my order, and then he looked at me and said "you got pretty eyes." i was like, 'thanks' and the old guy started saying to the new guy "man, you can't say stuff like that... they got cameras up here" and then the new guy asked me if i minded that he said that and i said no and then they started in with the camera thing again. soyeah. and then the old guy said "you do got pretty eyes" to me. i was flattered, but a bit uncomfortable standing there. i just wanted unhealthy burger king food... so michelle and i sat down. and then the new guy got off work so he started putting his street clothes over his work clothes and new guy and old guy were having a discussion about how unfair it was that they couldn't wear their "bling" at work. then new guy started applying cologne, and he came over to me and asked if i could do him a favor and smell the bottle. so i did, and he asked if i liked it and i said yes, and then he said that it was polo sport, and i said "that's nice." he let Michelle smell it too, and then he went into the bathroom. later on, he was talking to old guy and old guy was saying that he shouldn't say things to me or something like that because he saw my husband, who plays for the 49ers. well, he got it right, i do like football players...

so i'm applying to a few other jobs the traditional way (cover letter and resume through the mail) and one of them is for the local NBC affiliate as a broadcast traffic coordinator. here is a link to a job description for the same position at another tv station. i'm guessing that the job would be pretty similar. i think that would be hella cool if i got that job. i could work in tv :) then later on my dad could help me get a job at the real NBC (it's owned by GE <- dad works there) in NYC and that would be hella cool. then beck and i could develop our idea for a tv series based on the odd things that happen to us and i'd have an in for pitching it to the execs. it'll all work out so well... :) yeah, i'm dreaming. i just hope i get that job. or any job, really.

So I decided over the weekend that I'm not going to be a teacher anymore. Well, at least not now. I don't think that's what I really want to do. I don't know what I want to do, really. I guess right now I just want a job that allows me to pay my rent and go out on the weekends. That's all I really want right now. Someday I'm sure I'll want more, and that's when I'll think about going back to school or whatever. But right now, since I'm not sure what I want to do I don't think it's a good idea to continue to go to school (and dig myself further in debt with student loans). Soyeah. Gotta finda job. The tough thing is, I know that career is never really going to be a priority for me. I just want to work because I need to make money to live on my own and do what I want to do. So nailing down a specific job to go for is hard because, frankly, I really don't care all that much. I'm going to a job fair later on today. Hopefully, I'll get a better idea of what's out there... I feel bad though. I'm leaving these doctors that I work for after only a few months. That's exactly what happened with their last secretary. She was a civil engineer who was going for her MBA, but decided after a few months that school wasn't for her anymore and she was going to try and find a "real job" using her degree. And now I'm doing the exact same thing to them. I suck.

So Beck sent this to me in a forward and I quite enjoy the sentiment:

Dearest Friend,

When you are sad, I will get you drunk and help you plot revenge against the sorry bitch/bastard who made you sad.

When you are blue, I'll try to dislodge whatever is choking you.

When you smile, I'll know you finally got laid.

When you are scared, I will rag you about it every chance I get.

When you are worried, I will tell you horrible stories about how much worse it could be and to quit whining.

When you are confused, I will use little words to explain it to your dumb ass.

When you are sick, stay away from me until you're well again. I don't want whatever you have.

When you fall, I will point and laugh at your clumsy ass.

This is my oath, I pledge 'til the end. Why you may ask? Because you're my friend!

Send this poem to ten of your closest friends or else you will have bad luck (and go to hell) and get depressed because you realize you only have 2 friends and one of them is not speaking to you right now
anyway.

P.S. A friend will help you move. A really good friend will help you move a body.

so beck and i saw the weirdest thing when we were driving on route 9 in clifton park yesterday... we were stopped at a light and this red convertable went past us in the other lane and in the passenger seat was the scream guy (from the movies) staring at us. it was very odd. he was completely turned around in his seat continuing to look at us when they stopped at the light. The convertable was from Ohio, and the driver was this redheaded guy who kept staring at us as well. They kept pacing us, and the guy with the scream mask on took his mask off and at the next light that we stopped at they were right next to us, staring in my car. it was a little uncomfortable... beck noted that apparently guys in Ohio don't know how to be subtle when trying to get a girl's attention. it was all very odd... :)